This is my last letter to my Didi, Dr. Asha Chopra, the
wonderful smiling bubble who enthusiastically lived her life and merged into
divine sea on April 7'th.
Didi, we had a spiritual divine connection. I still remember my first meeting with you when I came to your house for some presentation along with our friend Bill Ellermeyer in May 2004. I did not know then that you were SSY sadhak, Throughout that evening I felt some strong inner connection with you. Your elegant personality, the ease & sincere interest with which you spoke to every guest, the strong but sweet loving face all was extremely charming.
Just in a week I came to know that Poojya Guruji is arriving in Irvine and is being hosted by you. Suddenly the mystery of my inner connection with you became clear to me. We were both Gurubhaginis ( sisters through our Guru). From that day we shared this loving bond of sisters.
In last 8 years we connected on many occasions but our main connection was spiritual. We both had our own responsibilities and commitments but every time we met we did not feel any gap of communication. You knew I understood you, your inner challenges easily opened to me. And I knew you understood my silence or my words. No matter how many days, weeks or month after we met we never felt a gap.
From the day I re-started the SSY center in Irvine you stood by me and supported whole heartedly. You would sit in my classes and give me all your appreciation. But you also gave me guidance and suggestions wherever you felt I needed it. In spite of being so close to Guruji and having taken classes with him, you would attend class with me with a complete humble approach. It was so inspiring and encouraging when you would share some of your personal issues and seek clearance. Being such an intelligent and learned person you were the most humble person I have met in my life. Your urge to learn always was most striking quality in you.
Didi you were very truthful and courageous in expressing what you thought. While you cared and loved people dearly, you never hesitated in correcting or giving your honest opinion about things that you found inappropriate. I know your courage came from the inner purity of your heart and the genuine concern you had for people. You always came from a sincere need to help, contribute and solve issues rather than merely a criticizing others.
Our last meeting was also of a great spiritual significance. I shared with you my experience during the chanting of Maha Mrutyunjay Japa . I told you how, many times during the chanting in early hours of morning I would feel your presence with me; sometimes smiling at me, sometimes with a deep pain in your eyes and sometimes questions. I told you that since last 2 weeks I saw you in absolute peace. You said "yes I do feel peace in me now". You told me about the book you were reading of Paramahansa Yogananda - the "Devine Romance. You said now you are understanding why all this is happening. You said, Vishakha I am ready for my final journey now. To this I told you, "Didi, you have become so big that this body cannot hold you anymore. You need a bigger body. So it is time now to shed this one and merge into the bigger outfit". You gave me that loving, understanding smile and held my hand. While Rahul was asking me to let you rest, you did not want me to leave. It was the most amazing connection that we both felt for each other. Both of us did not want to part from each other.
My dear lovely brave didi, the most beautiful person who had such fantastic qualities and such great love for all; you were really like a bubble. Humble and empty inside but full of life & vibrant, colorful, beautiful outside, jumping with full of life, joy. I will still continue to meet you in my silent moments. To be with you all I need to do is close my eyes and think of you and your loving, smiling face is right there in front of me.
Didi, we had a spiritual divine connection. I still remember my first meeting with you when I came to your house for some presentation along with our friend Bill Ellermeyer in May 2004. I did not know then that you were SSY sadhak, Throughout that evening I felt some strong inner connection with you. Your elegant personality, the ease & sincere interest with which you spoke to every guest, the strong but sweet loving face all was extremely charming.
Just in a week I came to know that Poojya Guruji is arriving in Irvine and is being hosted by you. Suddenly the mystery of my inner connection with you became clear to me. We were both Gurubhaginis ( sisters through our Guru). From that day we shared this loving bond of sisters.
In last 8 years we connected on many occasions but our main connection was spiritual. We both had our own responsibilities and commitments but every time we met we did not feel any gap of communication. You knew I understood you, your inner challenges easily opened to me. And I knew you understood my silence or my words. No matter how many days, weeks or month after we met we never felt a gap.
From the day I re-started the SSY center in Irvine you stood by me and supported whole heartedly. You would sit in my classes and give me all your appreciation. But you also gave me guidance and suggestions wherever you felt I needed it. In spite of being so close to Guruji and having taken classes with him, you would attend class with me with a complete humble approach. It was so inspiring and encouraging when you would share some of your personal issues and seek clearance. Being such an intelligent and learned person you were the most humble person I have met in my life. Your urge to learn always was most striking quality in you.
Didi you were very truthful and courageous in expressing what you thought. While you cared and loved people dearly, you never hesitated in correcting or giving your honest opinion about things that you found inappropriate. I know your courage came from the inner purity of your heart and the genuine concern you had for people. You always came from a sincere need to help, contribute and solve issues rather than merely a criticizing others.
Our last meeting was also of a great spiritual significance. I shared with you my experience during the chanting of Maha Mrutyunjay Japa . I told you how, many times during the chanting in early hours of morning I would feel your presence with me; sometimes smiling at me, sometimes with a deep pain in your eyes and sometimes questions. I told you that since last 2 weeks I saw you in absolute peace. You said "yes I do feel peace in me now". You told me about the book you were reading of Paramahansa Yogananda - the "Devine Romance. You said now you are understanding why all this is happening. You said, Vishakha I am ready for my final journey now. To this I told you, "Didi, you have become so big that this body cannot hold you anymore. You need a bigger body. So it is time now to shed this one and merge into the bigger outfit". You gave me that loving, understanding smile and held my hand. While Rahul was asking me to let you rest, you did not want me to leave. It was the most amazing connection that we both felt for each other. Both of us did not want to part from each other.
My dear lovely brave didi, the most beautiful person who had such fantastic qualities and such great love for all; you were really like a bubble. Humble and empty inside but full of life & vibrant, colorful, beautiful outside, jumping with full of life, joy. I will still continue to meet you in my silent moments. To be with you all I need to do is close my eyes and think of you and your loving, smiling face is right there in front of me.
